Lights will guide you home.

Has it ever happened when you have felt lost? I am not talking about losing your way and ending up some place wrong and just getting physically lost. I am talking about 'feeling lost'. The feeling you get when there is no one that can help you and you desperately want answers to some questions that you just can't figure out yourself.
I have gone through this I-am-seriously-in-a-effed-up situation when I completed my class 12th boards. Everyone was too busy filling out applications of their "dream colleges and universities" and I was sitting their like a donkey. I had no idea what i was suppose to do with and in my life. My life felt like a complete waste. Wrong, a psychologist would say at this point, and even add shit like "embrace your shortcomings, and blah blah blah". Being an 18 year old and having no idea which course you should opt for was a nightmare which i don't want anyone to have.
My case was that i wasn't sure what i wanted with my life. Now, I will take this moment to tell you all that i like to dabble in a lot of different things. I love to learn different things, like baking, horse-riding, playing golf(which i have started to learn), playing piano and stuff like that. I have a creative head and i like designing. My love for designing led me to believe that I should probably get into NIFT and learn fashion designing (which was my go-to career since class 8 because i am good at art and painting). But even when i was giving my NIFT entrance i wasn't sure. Me and my confused mind! Phew! Plus, all the aunties that used to visit my house now and then would say, "Arey, designing acha!" making a pitiful face as if sympathizing with me and the gloomy future that I will have when i take up designing. They would continue to say, "hamare jaan ne wale hain unki beti ne designing ki, ab aap meri beti ko dekhiye jo itna acha kama rhi hai aur unki beti ko dekhiye jisko job hi nhi mil rhi (There is an acquaintance of mine whose daughter had done designing, now see my daughter who is earning so much and their daughter who has no job)". I won't say that it had any impact on me but my family was apprehensive about it because not one but many aunties said such stuff.

This shit aside, I did get through the entrances and the second paper and was even offered NIFT Hyderabad in the last counselling which took place after one and a half month of the announcement of the results. Within that time I had lost my grandma and was in no mood to give a eff about my life. This and then the irritation that i had not been offered any centre even when i had a good rank in the first few counselings led me to say NO when they offered my Hyderabad. It is human nature to get frustrated when you keep on waiting. I used to check the website every time they uploaded the allocation list and every effing time they disappointed me.
So to get away from it, I joined a university in my city and i enrolled myself in a B.tech course even after repeatedly mentioning the fact that i don't want to do B.tech, i don't want to be an engineer (i don't have any grudge against engineers by the way). I went for a day, came back home, went the second day with an application to change my course from B.tech to B.A. (Hons) English. I found myself quite at home in pursuing this course and now I am in second year. My passion for designing has not died and I plan on getting a Diploma from NIFT.
Sometimes i think that i made a mistake in not accepting NIFT Hyderabad but then people kept saying that maybe life has some other plans for me and i have my hopes pinned on it. Maybe life does have some plans for me even if i don't.

Right now I am happy studying English Lit because I have always loved reading books (you must be thinking that this girl seems to love every thing, well i like being in love) and i have also secured the highest marks *_* .
I don't know what future has in store for me so i am kinda doing my work,writing my blog and waiting for the lights to guide me home, as in, to my rightful place.

Love,
The Bibliophagist

P.S.- Do share with me if you have experienced the same.
Mail me your story at: bibliophile.beingnerdy@gmail.com
Picture credits : pinterest.com

Wuthering Heights

I have got a very interesting subject this semester. Yep it is all about the novels. I have got four novels to study in this semester apart from other subjects and believe me there are a whole lot of other subjects like Indian English Poetry and Indian English Prose and Literary Criticism and many others. The four novels are Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen, Great Expectations by Charles Dickens and Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte. So I am currently reading Wuthering Heights and i wonder why the hell i did not read it before. I finished ten chapters yesterday and i just can't put it down. Heathcliff has run away from Wuthering Heights and Mrs. Dean is testing my patience leaving the narration in the middle of nowhere. I can imagine what Mr. Lockwood must be going through.
The novel is a tad bit different from the other novels that i have read because we see the world through Mr. Lockwood's eyes and how he interprets it. When i started reading it I was confused when Mrs. Heathcliff is shown sitting, who by the way is Mr. Heathcliff's daughter-in-law. I had to go over that chapter twice to understand who was that young lady and the lad. Then when Mrs. Dean narrates the story, things start becoming a bit clearer and though, i am yet to finish the novel, I am fully capable of making a family chart of the Earnshaws and Lintons.
I am thoroughly enjoying reading it and just can't put it down because I am so into it. It's like being there in the sitting room of Wuthering Heights and seeing all the drama unfold before my eyes.
It also has some horror elements with the weather and the dream that Mr. Lockwood had when he spent a night in Wuthering Heights because of the storm. [I love when some mystery and horror elements creep up in novels. As a result my summer project was based on The Castle of Otranto by Horace Walpole which was the first ever Gothic novel written in the history of English Literature. I also love S.T. Coleridge for his poems are soaked in mystery and horror.]

I hope that i finish this novel in another day or two because i have my mid-semesters exams probably at the end of September.
I can't believe that i can't seem to have any time for reading novels. I also have to write my term paper on Robinson Crusoe on which i am doing a Post-Colonial study. I have so much to read and you people won't believe but apart from two or three novels that i must read at any cost if i have to sail through this semester, i have twenty other novels on my 'To Read List'. God only knows how i will manage to read them.

Do tell me about your views about Wuthering Heights if you have read it or any of the other classic novels.
Love,
The Bibliophagist

P.S. - The quote is by Catherine Earnshaw ( the lady love of Heathcliff) when she confesses her love for Heathcliff to the servant Mrs. Dean after having given her word to Edgar Linton for marriage. Phew! Complicated right? I thought so too.


 Picture credits : First one from indulgy.com
                           The quote is from pinterest.com

Welcome to my World.

Hey pretty people out there. This blog is dedicated to my undying love towards novels. I am a English Literature student so my love for books is justified. I love discussing books and the characters which are so close to my heart. The only thing is that i seldom find a person who is as dedicated towards reading as I am. I rarely am able to discuss a book which both of us have read. Though I am blessed to have Potterhead friends with whom I constantly discuss Harry Potter and all its nuances, but I don't often find people who have read Jane Austen or Sidney Sheldon, or Dan Brown, or some other writer. My passion of reading books started way back in Class 7 when i laid my hands on Nancy Drew. I started with detective thrillers, read Sidney and loved the suspense and crime thrillers. I then moved on to the Shopaholic series for some entertainment because i <3 shopping [i wanted to become a fashion designer but life had other plans :) ]. Presently, I have a collection of 150+ novels which I have been reading and collecting from Class 7. I don't like to borrow and read because I seriously don't like having another person's book in my hands. It feels like a stranger in my house.
Also, I am suffering from bibliosmia.Calm down. It is not some major disease. Don't know what that is? Bibliosmia is the sensation of smelling the books. It gives us, all bibliophiles, a major satisfaction when we smell the book. Weird? Nah, I don't think so.
Coming back to the point. I have made several blogs but i am not a regular because i don't think that the topics for which they were made were my calling. So i have ended up making another one and i hope that i am able to get through with this one. I will be posting my views not only on books but also my views in general. Hope you guys will like it.
The comment section is always open for all the reader to post their opinions which i will be more than happy to read.

Till then.
Ciao.
Love,
The Bibliophagist.

P.S - Bibliophagist means a person who is a voracious reader. I think it suits me.